Weight-Lost Challenge

While many people thought I would have written about this before now, but I have shown tremendous restraint. Impressive, I know. We are now officially in the final 24 hours of this challenge. The act of writing that makes me hungry. So the way this thing works is we weigh in once a week (we do this on Wednesdays before Lost, hence the name). We are measuring our weight loss by percentage weight lost so that it is fair, and whoever loses the largest percent at the end is the winner. The three losers will pay the winner $100 each so the winner gets $300. The players are Soups, Robby, Ward and me (although Soups sorta threw in the towel a few weeks back and is no longer really in contention) The final weigh in will take place tomorrow night at approximately 7:30 PM and at this point in time the race is way too close to call.

I have entered my final phase of this competition. I cannot reveal what that consists of at this time, but it's not super fun. I was leading at the last weigh in, but I don't think I've lost anything since last week....I'm honestly just hoping I didn't gain, and I have no way of knowing how everyone else is doing. Keep your fingers crossed and I'll let you know how it turns out...

Incurable Optimism

OK, so I stole this from Michael J. Fox, but with his recent TV special to promote his most recent book, I have been sucked into his incurable optimism. I have always thought of myself as an optimist, but it's not always as easy as it sounds to know that everything is going to work out. I know this could be overkill, but it's something I've been focusing on...with Marty McFly's book and the uncertainty I hadn't expected in my life. Anyway, I have to stay optimistic or I will end up completely depressed. I really like this quote from How I Met Your Mother (I know it's lame that I'm taking so much life advice from a sit-com). It embodies what I hope for, I guess, and I think it's pretty true.

"Don't forget, on any day, you can step out the front door and your world can change forever"

It has before, and it will again...

We Live and We Learn

My pendulum is still swinging a little wide, but I'm noticing a definite improvement. For example, I met a boy and let myself get totally caught up in it. (I know, I know better than that!) Then as quickly as my short lived love affair began, it was over. So in the span of 10 days, I was on top of the world and then came crashing back down to earth. So that sucked, but it's not all bad. It gave me hope. For the first time, I met somebody that I hadn't known before that I could see myself being happy with. That is progress, and something I was starting to doubt was ever going to happen, despite the insistence of friends and family. Everyone says "you're a great catch...you'll meet someone", but until that happens, it's hard to believe. So while I'm slightly disheartened, I know there's hope. From this experience, I have also just about decided to give up match.com. How embarassing to say you met your boyfriend/fiance/husband online. No offense to all the people who do this, but I just don't feel comfortable with that. There's an episode of How I met your mother when Ted brings a girl to the bar that he met online and Barney says that only crazy girls find guys online - this is when he introduces the hot/crazy scale, which I have taken into consideration before making many an important decision in my life. So while the pros of online dating are 1. I don't have to go anywhere 2. there are a lot of people on there that I might not otherwise meet 3. you skip a lot of the BS. The downside is 1. There are a lot of losers out there 2. it's kinda lame 3.you skip a lot of the BS. So I'm still trying to decide how to procede. I guess I will accept opinions on this topic.

In other news, today is my mother's 50th birthday! If you see or hear from her, please wish her a happy birthday. Even though at this point, it will probably be belated. She has had the best birthday ever so far which is encouraging. Her team teachers decorated her room and brought her a cake, she got flowers from me, lots of flowers from my dad, another cake from the parents of her students and they basically partied all day. I think she would most definitely agree that this is one of, if not the best birthday she has ever had. It's only getting better because my dad's having a party for her Saturday and they're going out tonight and she's as happy with her life as she ever has been. I know not every birthday has been so perfect so I just need to keep in mind that while things aren't as perfect right now as I think they could be, the best is yet to come.

Busy doing nothing...

OK, I'm sorry... I keep meaning to write... I really do... It's nothing personal... I've just been so busy. Busy doing nothing, but just the same. I do seriously have two or three drafts started. I just never have the patience to finish them. Lucky for all of you, I'm stuck at work on a gorgeous Saturday afternoon, and am rebelling by blogging. I have a lot of thoughts on Wal-Mart, but I think that deserves its own blog so I'm going to save it.



It's been kind of a big week. Sunday was Easter. That was just this past Sunday, right? Yeah, it was. Anyway, Ashlee came down Saturday night and we went to see .Records. - please note the name change - which was thrilling as always and then went to my church Sunday morning. We then went to Lafayette where I spent most of the day with Allie, blowing bubbles, watering flowers and cleaning up imaginary stars. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday passed in a blur of April Showers with the one exception being the phone call I received from Miss Allie Tuesday afternoon asking if I would be coming to her birthday. Heartbreakingly, the answer was no because I had to work. I hear she had a pretty fab party at Chuck-E-Cheese sans Karli so all is well. Thursday the sun came out and so did baby Camryn. Camyrn Paige O'Maley was born Thursday night to proud parents Soups and Ami. To quote Rachel Green, I can't believe one of us actually has one of these. It's kind of crazy, but so exciting. Cut to today and I'm just trying to get through the next two and a half hours so I can go to Ward-a-palooza!



Now that I've gotten through the recap, we can get down to business. So the sun has been out since Thursday which makes me happy. It's 70 degrees and sunny which is about as perfect as a spring day can get so I'm itching to get out of here, but in good spirits just the same. I've been trying to work on me a little bit. I am just so ready to be back to good. Not that I'm not good. I'm OK. It's just harder for me to get there from time to time. And I think I'm swinging farther than I used to with my moods which makes people think I'm crazy, myself included. And that's just not good for anyone. So in order to accomplish this, I am seeing a therapist who is trying to help me be OK just as me so I can be good for somebody else which is good for everybody really. You would think I would have some funny things to say about therapy, but I'm drawing a blank. Maybe because it's not court ordered or anything. I am sure over time there will be something. The long and the short of all that is just that I'm trying to be sunnier all the time, not just when it's sunny.

I'm tempted to go back to Wal-Mart because at least I know that stuff is funny, but I'm getting a little verbous as it is and I don't want to risk another 500 words that may or may not be hilarious. OK, so one last thought that I had earlier today...You know how all the Richmond folks stick together, right? And then they have a few folks who attach themselves...Well, I feel like in some ways I was converted to that lifestyle, much like some people convert to Judaism for their Jewish spouse. And now, much like Charlotte (well, Charlotte for like 2 episodes) in Sex in the City after she and the bald guy whose name I can't think of right now..maybe started with an H, I'm still Jewish even though I did it just for that one guy not really for the religion. OK, I'm not really sure where I was going with that without it hurting peoples' feelings and that's not at all how I intended it to sound. :-) I just had a couple come in to see an apartment so they distracted me. They are moving from Peru! Who lives in Peru? Peru, Indiana that is. I know lots of people live in Peru the country. My great-grandma lived in Peru so I know where it is, but I don't think I've ever known anyone else from there. OK, that's all I have for now. Two more hours then I'm out of here. I hope the sun sticks around!

Does anyone else use blogger and really want to write a post about scooters?

Contentment

I need something funny here to counteract the debbie-downerness of my last post. Well, I'm not feeling super funny, but I am feeling better. The weather is getting nice and I was able to enjoy the breeze all day at work. After work, Tilly and I went for a long walk which was good for both of us. Then I swung by the library and went tanning. I grabbed some food and came home for my favorite TV night. So I realize this doesn't sound like a huge improvement from where I was two days ago, but I'm getting there. I even think I might try and work out in the morning. We'll see. :-)

Tomorrow is St. Patty's Day so that should be fun. I hope so at least.

Kiss me I'm 1/5th Irish!

I like watching the puddles gather rain...

Update: My life is lame. I stayed in and watched Dexter all night Saturday. I looked damn cute though. Such a shame. I was hopeful that somebody would give me a call or swing by and pick me up, but of course that didn't happen. That never happens. I just don't know what to do to make that happen. I know I sound so pathetic and I hate that. But I'm a fun and cool person. Why don't people want to hang out with me? Is there something I could be doing to get myself out there more? Obviously, I'm not going to meet anybody staying in every night. Help, please. Seriously.

All I can say is that my life is pretty....TBD

I just want to start drinking. Is there anything wrong with that? I'm working my bazillionth Saturday in a row and I am ready to go home. It has been dead today, and the only thing keeping me going is Pandora. And now I've got everyone else listening to it today, too. Well, I guess by "everyone", I mean Soups. Everyone who's anyone, at least. Isn't that right, Soups?? And, I missed Ami's baby shower because I had to be here. I'm not really sure how important it was for me to be here. My phone has rung 6 times, once it was my mom, once it was Ashlee, twice it was Soups and twice it was Joey. (I'm transitioning from Joe to Joey - it's way more fun calling you Joey) Isn't it funny how I act like anybody is reading this besides Soups and my sister? Speaking of....I'm gonna throw some mad props to my man, Soups for also working a bazillion Saturdays in a row. It's not fun so I've got love for you for that.

Pandora: I started out the morning with a George Harrison station then rolled that into a little old school John Mayer station (no, you can't pick "old school" John Mayer as an inspiration, but it would be cool if you could.) Then went with some up-beat country (Zac Brown Band) then some chill country (Carrie Underwood) and now I'm in the final stretch of my day so I need some Katy Perry to get me through.

I want to go out tonight so I'm trying to make that happen. I'm not really doing so well so far. Ashlee is in town so I thought she'd come out with me, but no, she has other plans. Whatever. So I'm trying to find someone else to tag along with. I really need some girl friends. It's too bad you can't take dogs to bars.

I've been waiting all fricking day for the stupid sun to come out, but it hasn't happened yet. It was supposed to be nice today. Actually I have no idea where I heard that. I think I got that weather report by means of a long game of telephone. I guess cloudy and cold is what I deserve. Come on Spring!! I am so ready.

Well, I only have about 25 more minutes so wish me luck, and hopefully things will come together and I won't end up drinking with Tilly at home tonight....

K-Shon out. Peace.